Day 4 and the last.....

So I know it's pointless to write this since I am the only one who ever reads this. I am here to say I give up. I have been bested by my friends and family and sheer fact that one cannot go 1 month without money. I wish I could say I made it a whole week but I can't. After last night's fight with the certain someone and the no followers or comments on here I am forced to admit that I am alone. Without support I cannot convince myself to stay with my goal. Maybe this is just to unattainable or maybe I will never be able to quell my spend thrift was, who knows...but I'm done. Sorry to anyone who may read this blog and actually care about my cause and I'm sorry to myself who I have let down immensely. I guess I should get used to a life full of letdowns since that's the way the world works. Thanks for reading.....

goodbye....

Day 3 again.....

Tonight was a bad night for me. I helped my friends carry some stuff for the relay for life tonight and I stayed and walked some laps for those who have died in my family that had cancer. Too bad for me I missed dinner. A friend earlier asked me to go get Hy-Vee Chinese with him, my weak spot, but I resisted. From then on it got worse. I asked someone who will remain nameless to help me out and use some of my money from my account to order me a pizza online and have it sent to me dorm. This person refused to help me telling me to do it myself, and using my own money. As I well know this would break my pact with myself and I will not give up after only 3 days. I said no and we fought about it until this person hung up and then we fought more.

Now I am going hungry tonight and I hope tomorrow will be better by the cravings to use my money are hard and I am feeling sick to my stomach from not eating. I know it's silly to push myself this hard but I spend way to much money of trivial things and this may be hard but it's the push I need. Your support is greatly appreciated although I know I am typing this to myself and no one reads this. I support myself I always have and I always will.

yeah.....

Day 3, April 8th

So today started out fine and all, I have a plain bagel with cream cheese, one of my luscious desserts and some milk. It made a fitting breakfast and I was "full and focused" all day. It's Friday and my weakness are getting stronger, I have not had a Pepsi in 2 days now, this also means I have had no caffeine or soda. I'm waiting for the crazy me to appear. I am staring to think that not drinking soda and NOT spending money at the same time may have been a BAD idea. 

Right now I'm fighting off a chocolate shake craving due to stress. I ordered a package from China and to make a VERY long story short it got severely mixed up and I'm not sure if I will get it or not. After calling a bunch of post offices and contacting the seller my blood pressure is through the roof! All i want right now is a sammich, chips, and a chocolate shake. Unfortunately all that costs money, here is where the problem lies. 

My roommate is also going to be gone almost all weekend, physically here at UNI but gone for most of the weekend at various events, so I wont have her strength to keep me going. Dashes also hold werid hours on the weekends, for instance today they are closed. No way I can get any food outta them, dinning center alone it is! I also work bright and early tomorrow morning, right next to the place I wanna eat at. I am also resisting the urge to drive home for the weekend to see my family and cats and to wait for my MAYBE package. I can already tell this is going to be a difficult weekend.

No Grocery List Today!

Thanks for all those who read this and leave more comments and vote on the polls I need support and this will surely get my going. 

Ta-Ta

Just a quick update!!!

So my loving Mom has put money into my account online and told me to go buy Poptarts. While she is just trying to take care of me, my mind says to me "go ahead and spend it, it's only day 2 and you need food...". Ugh trying to resist, so difficult. Playing Tetris to keep my mind off of it!

L8TR

Still Day 2, April 7th

So work went well, popcorn and crackers tided me over well....enough. I got back and was starving but some water and dinner at 5 cured that. I didn't no matter how bad i want to, pig out on dinner but the dessert I could not resist! (cheerio marshmallow bar with M&M drizzled with white and milk chocolate). After my enjoyable dinner I did my now routine task of going to Dashes. This time I got two meals since I already finished off yesterday's meal. Yeah, I sorta dug into the bagels early ^_^

Today's grocery list:
3 bagels with LOTS of cream cheese
2 bowls of Golden Gram cereal
3 more delicious dessert (only cause they didn't have any fruit and I didn't want to waste my meal plan)
4 cartons of milk (I feared I was getting low on milk)

So far I hypothesis that I have saved at least $10, the 3.50 from yesterday. Not having to buy milk today and not charging lunch! Now I'm going to see a friend preform at Open Mic night and I know he will do great. Good Luck Tom! As for me I am doing so far so good....

Keep on truckin'

P.S. Check out the new poll I NEED HELP!

Day 2, April 7th

Today is day two in case you missed the title. Kidding! Today has already been a struggle. I have had some not great moments just because I am tired. I all most decked a girl in my class but believe me when i say she would have DESERVED it. I also hyper-extended my pinky with a possible strain from practicing the piano for a test that was today, still yet the worst is to come. I bound my finger with the ring finger to let it rest and at 1 o'clock I head off to work till 4.

Now the pain in my finger I can handle, it's the stress from this morning and my not having time for lunch that makes me wanna buy a big 'ol sammich and Pepsi to take the edge off. I kept trying to make excuses as to why I should buy lunch and i almost had myself convinced. Did i mention that i work in a CATERING business. Being around all that food and being starving, yeah....., gonna suck! Each time I made up my mind I remembered this challenge and how I would feel giving up on the first day. So with great will power I headed back to my dorm and I am not eating left over crackers that I have not eaten (waste of money right there) and water from the fountain. My struggle continues......

Bye for now!!

1st Day! April 6th

So today as you may already know is the first day I am starting my "no money" challenge. It was already made difficult when my roommie informed me that she would be eating at Los Cabos, a local Mexican restaurant, this evening with her honor society. Of course at that moment a momentous hunger for Mexican food came over me. All i could think about is enchiladas smothered in cheese sauce.......*drool*. Ahem...Excuse me. Fortunately i resisted the temptation and dutifully i walked down my 4 flights of stairs and down a sloping hill to the Rialto.

Luck befell me then while as walking I encountered Rebecca, Jen, Kyle, and Topher. This helped me strengthen my resolve as they were also going to dinner at Rialto and invited me alone. I ate with them but I had to dash because Dashes was closing soon (no pun intended). I got my food and hurried back to my room.

My grocery list for April 6:
1 Banana
2 Cinnamon Raisin bagels
1 Bowl of apple jacks cereal
and 3 mini packets of cream cheese

It all sounds good now but we will see in the a.m. how i feel without my daily Poptarts. Already I have saved $3.50 on a box of those delicious pastries. Now I'm off to study for my Abnormal Psy. class and let's hope this keeps my mind off fired ice cream.....doubtful.

TTYL

P.S. Check out the link at the bottom of my page, there is a site where a family did something much like my own but with a budget instead. Woo....I don't feel so alone in my challenge.

My deal with myself

Today I decided after a bit of thought that I am going to try and spend $0 the rest of the month on April. I came to this conclusion when I preemptively spent money I thought I was going to have on pay day. Turns out I was wrong and now I am broke. I feel bad because I have promised I would give my mom some money for the bills she has been paying for me. The only exception to my deal is Easter. I have to use money for gas and Easter it's self but besides that NADA!

My plan:
1) I will use only my meal plans here at school for eating. I will get dinner and then I will use the rest, for I get 2 a day, to get my breakfast from this place called Dashes.
2) i am seriously going to hide all my source of money spending, i.e. my debit card and check book, which my roommate will not tell where they are.
3) I will make a written proposal on HOW and WHY i need to use money and she will made the decision to let me or not. (I trust her to only use it for emergencies)
4) I will spend more time on my studies and money free activities to keep my mind occupied.
5) I will constantly remind myself of the benefits of this challenge.

Today I watched Precious. It made me think and only further solidified my mind. I groan about the silliest things and look how much I have. While my life may not have been that of a Rockefeller I am still very privileged. There is a picture I will try and share that details my point better then I can. I hope all you who read this will support me because I know today seems like a victory, tomorrow may be bleak.

Bye for now!