Tonight was a bad night for me. I helped my friends carry some stuff for the relay for life tonight and I stayed and walked some laps for those who have died in my family that had cancer. Too bad for me I missed dinner. A friend earlier asked me to go get Hy-Vee Chinese with him, my weak spot, but I resisted. From then on it got worse. I asked someone who will remain nameless to help me out and use some of my money from my account to order me a pizza online and have it sent to me dorm. This person refused to help me telling me to do it myself, and using my own money. As I well know this would break my pact with myself and I will not give up after only 3 days. I said no and we fought about it until this person hung up and then we fought more.
Now I am going hungry tonight and I hope tomorrow will be better by the cravings to use my money are hard and I am feeling sick to my stomach from not eating. I know it's silly to push myself this hard but I spend way to much money of trivial things and this may be hard but it's the push I need. Your support is greatly appreciated although I know I am typing this to myself and no one reads this. I support myself I always have and I always will.
yeah.....
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